I haven’t written a blog post since August 6th, 2012. That shouldn’t even count, though, as it was a repost of my May 2011 story of how I landed my dream internship at Hashable. Prior to that, the last blog post I wrote was on December 29th, 2011.
Over time, I grew tired of how my site looked. I didn’t like how small the font was. The branding of my blog felt like an outdated design that reflected a younger me. So, as I’m sure many of you can relate to (especially those of you who aren’t technical and thus similarly challenged at the idea of how to fix these problems), I stalled and put off blogging. I made excuses. Also, I am a perfectionist… so I kept telling myself I don’t have time to write the perfect post to meet the standards I’ve unconsciously set for myself.
All of these excuses held me back from writing.
My roommate has been pushing me for months to start writing again. Finally, last night, I committed. I told myself I would not let this ‘Sweatpants Sunday‘ slide by without posting something.
So, here I am. Double-cupped up at this coffee house in Brooklyn. Typing one-handed. I just had a pretty intense shoulder surgery (pic below) called a “Laterjet procedure” 3 weeks ago, so my left arm is in a sling… unable to contribute whatsoever in the writing of this post. It’s my 3rd shoulder surgery, after 8 previous dislocations from basketball (described in a letter I wrote to Lil Wayne in 2010).
Reflecting back, I’ve lived in New York City for a year now. In fact, my one-year anniversary at YieldMo was just a couple weeks ago, on October 1st. It’s been the hardest year of my life – just ask anyone close to me. But I’m still here. Still fighting. Fighting to recover from surgery. Fighting to get better at sales. Fighting to stay alive financially. Fighting to protect my principles. To those who I haven’t been able to see or speak to in a long time, I promise you I’m still the same me. Young, ambitious, emotional, insecure, but hungry as ever. And, still committed to being remembered as the most loyal individual any of you ever knew when I’m gone.
I’m excited to start writing again, making this a regular focus. There are a TON of hard lessons I’ve learned, and I think it’s going to be therapeutic sharing some of them on my blog. I can’t let my voice or my dreams die. This is what’s in my head right now.
Credit to the YNH family and all my friends who are keeping me sane. Looking around me, one reason my dreams are still alive is thanks to my friends not giving up on chasing their own, night and day, as well. Dan‘s writing just gets better and better… Dorian is really coming into his own as an artist (check out his art)… Ryan is building a product that, among other great things, is enabling me to work faster at YieldMo… Conrad just had his biggest revenue month yet at SnagFreeSamples… Mark is working on behavioral science software to help people build better habits… and my brother Kivvy is making the best music of his life (his debut EP project, “Hardcore Parkour”, is dropping on Thanksgiving).
Super pumped to announce that i'm dropping the new EP #HardcoreParkour next month. Easily my best work yet, cant wait for you all to hear!!
— Y.N.H Kivvy (@Kivvy) October 21, 2013
Okay, now I have to prepare for a call with Boyce. Time to press publish.
But first, shout out to the barista who gave me my coffee and danish for free after randomly asking if I had an Android phone and if I happened to have brought my charger - which I of course had with me and let her borrow.
Thank you to bwats for pushing me to write again. Don’t let excuses hold you back from chasing whatever it is you may have been born to do.